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Its Not Always Easier As Time Goes On

How many people have told you that time heals all wounds?  Or that in time you won’t cry, won’t miss him, won’t want to talk to her as much?  Sometimes though in this journey of being alone you experience pain that is even worse than the day they died. Now that I am past the “year of firsts” my life has become more routine.  I’m not dealing regularly with people who are just finding out Jack died.  There aren’t more forms to fill out.  On a daily basis I’m not encountering new situations where I still have to reconcile his death. Still here are moments that bring me to my knees reeling in pain and weeping uncontrollably. They come in quiet times when I sense the chasm between where I am now and where he is.  I keep my favorite photo of Jack on my cell phone and usually it brings me great comfort.  Other times though I see his smiling face and am overwhelmed by the pain of never being able to see him or touch him again. There usually isn’t a big trigger to these sorrow filled moments. And that’s the reason it isn’t always easier as time goes on. We can understand feeling our grief on holidays or at major life events when our loved one should be standing beside us.  As…