Have you ever taken the time to consider where you are now and where you were then? “Then” might have been a week, a month, a year, a decade ago.
Fourteen months ago my husband was dying but we were together. Five ago we thought his cancer surgery was a one time thing and we were oblivious of what was to come.Today I am very much alone and have made it through the “Year of Firsts.” Yes I am still sad and my tears will flow… And I’m OK with both.
Even though I am alone I am not broken. I am not helpless. I am not afraid. And a year ago I would have told you I was all of those things.
We think at our weakest moments that we won’t make it through our worst nightmare… but we do. We think that we don’t deserve to be happy but we start to have happy moments again and they increase as time goes on. We think that our life will never be the same… and… it isn’t. But it also isn’t over.
And a year from now we’ll be stronger. We’ll be happier. And we can look back again and see how far we’ve come… because our lives go on. We’ll do the best we can and we’ll figure it out. Because we always have. And we always will.
With love, Cheryl